April 23, 2014

never a friend like that..

  just wanted to give a quick shout out to my dog zeus!
he is the best!
he has a way to brighten the day of everyone he meets.

a faithful friend
i love him so much...i really don't know what it would be like not having him around to exchange love, play and snuggles.
he has a couple feline sisters and for the most part, they all get along. sure they have their 'moments' but don't we all?
zeus is a great reminder to me to keep things simple, find rest when you can and always find time to play.





poem by: W. Dayton Wedgefarth

"I talk to him when I'm lonesome like;
And I'm sure he understands.
When he looks at me so attentively,
And gently licks my hands;
Then he rubs his nose on my tailored clothes,
But I never say naught thereat.
For the good Lord knows I can buy more clothes,
But never a friend like that."




fyi: eels/may 25, 2014/st.paul MN/ fitzgerald theater/tickets

 
What would you say if I left this town tomorrow
I guess I would
But know I'd miss the train
I know I would
I'll take a dog's life
Just layin' in the sun
I'll take a dog's life
'cause I don't care for this one

Chasing trains and planes and rain
Where is my rain
Falling down upon a thirsty world
I never want to be the same

Another time I might have fit in alright
But not this time
I guess I'm just too soon
To change my tune

I'll take a dog's life
Just layin' in the sun
I'll take a dog's life
'cause I don't care for this one

Chasing trains and planes and rain
Where is my rain
Falling down upon a thirsty world
I never want to be the same






April 21, 2014

soul painting

our dinning room table.
dining over art
i refer to it as 'useable art'.
 

 this piece of furniture was the first purchase my husband and i made together. it was a worn wobbly table with four chairs. 
 i remember feeling so anxious at the thought of resting my entire body weight on any given chair...

i knew what the piece needed.    
 attention.
 little did i know that a few coats of paint would provide more than bright and happy! after the first coat dried, we realized the gaps filled in 
and the furniture acquired an unexpected 
sturdiness and stability.

what about me? 
i'm getting older, at times a bit worn 
and somewhat wobbly.  

would a paint refresh
fill in some 'gaps' and make 
me a bit more solid?
 brighten my soul?
happy up my spirit?

spring colors have arrive...what have i got to lose?!



painting is poetry that is seen rather than felt, and poetry is painting that is
 felt rather than seen. ~leonardo da vinci (i don't necessary agree with this master....)

Oh I'm newly calibrated
All shiny and clean
I'm your recent adaptation
Time to redefine me

Let the word out I've got to get out
Oh I'm feeling better now
Break the news out I've got to get out
Oh I'm feeling better now

Oh I'm happy as Christmas
All wrapped to be seen
I'm your recent acquisition
Time to celebrate me

Let the word out I've got to get out
Oh I'm feeling better now
Break the news out I've got to get out
Oh I'm feeling better now

The world's done shaking
The world's done shaking
The world's done shaking me down

The world's done shaking
The world's done shaking
The world's done shaking me down 

April 18, 2014

a finder's path

 i am currently making 
finder's path
the transition from 
seeker to finder...
this new path is allowing me 
to let go of many strong opinions 
and the burden to live in 
'ought to's and should of's'. 

if i find myself doing 
or thinking 
along familiar territory
then i'm pretty certain the 
tough questions beg to be asked.
it is in the challenged ask 
i will find opportunities 
to grow in love, 
peace and 
happiness



people deal too much with the negative, with what is wrong. why not try and see positive things, to just touch those things and make them bloom? ~nhat hanh
finder's path

if you abandon the present moment, you cannot live the moments of your daily life deeply. ~nhat hanh




(CLICK HERE FOR YOUTUBE:) mindshaft: dessa
To the bottom of the mineshaft
The list of things I used to be is longer than the list of things I am
Ex-lover, ex-friend
Ex-communicated atheist, ex-patriot
Living in the heartland
Living on the small chance
Luck would save the last dance
For an underrated writer, overrated rapper
Undecided major on an unrelated matter
One day I'd like to say what all the tug-o'-war was for
More than slack rope, more than sun stroke
Them rum soaked in sad jokes at rap shows
Some folks know how slow that trap closes,
Prose is closest I've ever been to feeling like I found it
I'm not a writer I just drink a lot about it
If diamonds are a girl's best friend
Then you can share a fine laugh and you can
Send me back to the bottom of the mineshaft

I've been here before and I know where it goes
It goes down

Snow falls fast and thin
Angels ash Virginia Slims
And if we've come a long way then I suspect it sideways, further from our origin,
No closer to our destination
I'm bad with names, shit, I'm bad with faces
I'm bad with bills and little kids and well-lit places
I'm beginning to write like Anna Karenina, give me a minute, a mic
A little to like, get rid of the spite, a bit of the pride to fight
You tried, you're right fried (you're live on all lines)
You're tired, you're fired
You're inside of the lie
It's a brilliant design
It's like, "Just act surprised"
I lost some money on the weighted dice
I lost an octave to the Camel Lights
And when I lost you, I lost some good love and a hand to bite
I lost a friend to my wit and my pride
I'd rather sit while you drive

I've been here before and I know where it goes
It goes down

The plans that we made and the bills and the planes over downtown

April 17, 2014

waiting

 waiting
yikes!!!!! i have been so remiss in getting my blogs out lately!  my apologies to all you loyal readers!(thanks for emailing me, getting me off my butt and back at my laptop blogging). 
more work will soon be posted as i have been consumed with paint, textures, dreams and stories!!!! i've completed a new series, but for now i am posting an old favorite...it ties in nicely with Easter.

so that being said i thought i'd share with you a little 'ritual' of mind (mine).

i always have enjoyed Easter as it offers a perfect opportunity for reflection and renewal...!

as the days unfold i remind myself to visit the story of Christ and His journey of sacrifice. i am in awe of His ability to love unconditionally, look past our shortcomings... the depth of His peace and mercy and grace.

 i'm wowed by His incredible journey ...just imagine He wore skin, 
He was a boy...
He was a carpenter's son...
He laughed, 
He sweat, 
He shed tears. 
He humbled himself and died for me, for you, for us.

in the days ahead, i like to quiet my thoughts and be still. i like to imagine what it may have been like for mary and the apostles after such a great loss and a lingering promise. 
her son was gone, their friend and teacher had died. died on a cross.
as the hours past and the days counted...what went thru their minds? what did they experience in the wait? i'm convinced they were never without hope.

personally, i gain strength, trust and faith in the waiting...

what will you find?

if you wish to learn more read: matthew chapters 27 and 28

 


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March 28, 2014

how deep is that river?

the baptism
 i saw the movie 'noah' and was mesmerized by the story...of course i know the story, but to experience it in a theater with the additional creative license of hollywood, wow!  i know there is a great deal of controversy regarding this movie, but i felt an enormous reminder of the value in choice, love, trust, mercy, compassion, faith...i'm still actually processing the experience. loved it!


the painted story:
 i have been playing in my studio a great deal these days...having fun experimenting with new techniques and incorporating new products. with my love of another water, it is no wonder a great number of the pieces have an aquatic influence in either the message or in the process.



How deep is that river? How deep is that river?
I don't wanna know where it's coming from
I don't need to know where it's going to
Before I place my trust in You
I just wanna know, how deep?
God said to me what He said to the tree
Grow up towards the light and one day you'll see
My son Jesus, what did He say?
Love the Lord, your God and God will show you the way
Do unto others like you wanna be done
Look deep in your heart and know that we are one
Singing, how deep is that river? How deep is that river?
I don't wanna know how fast it flows
I don't need to know if it's safe to swim
Before I put my trust in Him
I just wanna know, how deep?
God came down in the cool of the day
Stirred up the waters and began to play
Before He knew it, man was on the land
With a thought in his head, and a gun in his hand
God saw that man was just a little too rough
So He gave him a heart and filled it up with love
Singing, how deep is that river? How deep is that river? Yes
I don't wanna know if it has a name
I don't need to know how to cross it yet
Before I get my spirit wet
I just wanna know, how deep, alright
A few years back I lost my way
I was deep in the woods, I began to pray
I came to a river and I sat on its bank
It was cool and clear, I have Jesus to thank
I drank that water, yes, I drank it up
Now every day I come back and fill my cup
Singing, how deep is that river? How deep is that river?Yes
I don't wanna know if it's yours or mine
I don't need to know if it's east or west
Before I put my fears to rest
I just wanna know how deep
How deep is that river? How deep is that river? Yes
I don't wanna know where it's coming from
I don't need to know where it's going to
Before I place my trust in you
I just wanna know how deep
I just wanna know how deep
I just wanna know how deep


March 20, 2014

more than doing nothing

“All life has emptiness at it's core
it is the quiet hollow reed 
through which the wind of God blows 

i have been listening to 
this read offers such a practical understanding of the sabbath...
a seemingly simple principal God commands of us.
the way of enough

as the chapters unfolded
i came closer to realizing what i have been missing in not observing
the practice of sabbath in my life. 
muller's discussion deepens beyond the concept of 'rest'  and explores:
rhythms (loved this concept!!!)
artificial urgency (this too!),

in the space of a listen, i found i could hear wisdom speaking
do you know what i mean? ...that little voice that usually gets drown out by the noise of every day
she had so many things to share with me. 
now i find myself excited for us to have our daily 'coffee talk'
muller discusses about play...joy
pursuit of happiness
the concept of choice (time vs money)

what does it mean to be no one special?  (i've previously heard this discussed as 'growing down...)
what does it mean to have a beginner's mind?
am i a seeker? a finder?
what are my treasures?  how do they define me?
am i driven to be useful?
and then there is the sabbath...the actual, physical day. what do i do? what does my day look like like? 
what do i do in the morning? evening? how do my decisions/actions affect others?

this book has provided an interesting point of view, 
a revisit... a.common sense reminder
 with practical ideas for slowing down, 
breathing and 


March 17, 2014

all i need is you

i am powerful in my dreams.
the reach
i move fearlessly. 
with grace and precision my actions 
are
decisive
...effortless. 
as morning approaches and i become aware 
that wake is impatiently knocking 
on my frontal lobe, 
i find myself reaching out to retain the
feelings of power and fearlessness.  
a wave of reality washes over me 
and i become the truth of me.
i chuckle as i take inventory. 
i can be so silly with my worries! 

i remind myself that all i ever need to reach for is God. (philippians 4:13)

(click on song title to be connected to youtube performance)

left my fear by the side of the road
hear You speak and won't let go
fall to my knees as I lift my hands and pray
got every reason to be here again
a Father's love that draws me in
all my eyes want to see is glimpse of You

all I need is You
all I need is You, Lord
is You, Lord

March 3, 2014

illuminating a warrior's path



daily i rely on my faith to navigate the now. thru prayer and meditation
 i am becoming mindful of the warrior within. normally i would use my 
breath to find my focus and center. 
but after listening to 
cecilia illuminates the warrior's path
 i was reminded of the nine 
collective attributes
   key to living 
a life transformed in truth. 

 so early this morning, in a house still asleep,
i sat alone on the couch...
 just me, my thoughts and coffee brewing in the kitchen.
 questions popped in my head fairly quickly.
where was my heart at? 
was i walking forward with love and joy?
 love? can i love without 
strings or conditions? 
joy? what exactly is joy? i think i am joyful....
 do i know peace? give it to others? 
understand what it means to live
 with/in peace?

am i patient? (yes, i actually asked myself this question!!!
i laughed too! 
it is always good to be able to laugh at one's self!!!)
 kind? check!
 good? check!
faithful? hum...i have so many questions about God, but yet still consider myself a believer.  where does this put me? faithful or not?
do i practice gentleness and self-control?
oh! coffee's ready... guess i'll have to take this up again l-a-t-e-r .. 



but the Holy Spirit produces this kind of fruit in our lives: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. there is no law against these things! 
–galatians 5:22-23  


I know a place where God's people can run free,
It's a new kind of love and they call it agape,
Don't take too long to find,
True love transcends all time,
That non-reacting, everlasting love.

Give me your unconditional love,
The kind of love I deserve,
The kind I want to return,
Give me your unconditional love,
The kind of love I deserve,
The kind I want to return.

Don't try to change or tear your brother down,
Let him make his mistakes and he will come around,
Hasten just to pray,
In God's true word obey,
In non-reacting, everlasting love.

Give me your unconditional love,
The kind of love I deserve,
The kind I want to return,
Give me your unconditional love,
The kind of love I deserve,
The kind I want to return.

Give me your unconditional love.

Don't take too long to find,
True love transcends all time,
That non-reacting, everlasting love.

Give me your unconditional love,
The kind of love I deserve,
The kind I want to return,
Give me your unconditional love,
The kind of love I deserve,
The kind I want to return.

Oh, I wanna tell you...
I'll give you my unconditional love,
The kind of love you deserve,
The kind you want to return,
Now, sing it out...
Give you my unconditional love,
The kind of love you deserve,
The kind you want to return.

Hey.



February 23, 2014

a breath away from a giggle...

 i was sitting here thinking of my grand-
daughter ayla ...it's gotta be just about the end of her nap time...
 my mind is wandering and skipped  to random thoughts. what has she
confetti susan
 been dreaming about lately?

 the color pink,
 princesses, castles,
 barbies, boyfriends,
 dancing and 
strawberries are 
the usual topics of conversation...
 she is always a breath away from a giggle!
 i just love that about her!
with spring a few weeks away
 it is my hope we can bury
 some seeds together... and maybe later we can share the aromas and the harvest of our plantings party.

i can dream...can't i??? (for spring that is..)



You who are on the road
Must have a code that you can live by
And so become yourself
Because the past is just a good bye.

Teach your children well,
Their father's hell did slowly go by,
And feed them on your dreams
The one they picked, the one you'll know by.

Don't you ever ask them why, if they told you, you would cry,
So just look at them and sigh and know they love you.

And you, of tender years,
Can't know the fears that your elders grew by,
And so please help them with your youth,
They seek the truth before they can die.

Counter Melody To Above Verse:
Can you hear and do you care and
Cant you see we must be free to
Teach your children what you believe in.
Make a world that we can live in.

Teach your parents well,
Their children's hell will slowly go by,
And feed them on your dreams
The one they picked, the one you'll know by.

Don't you ever ask them why, if they told you, you would cry,
So just look at them and sigh and know they love you


February 18, 2014

this is a way...

breathe
brēT͟H/
verb

1.
take air into the lungs and then expel it
2.to be alive; live
3.to pause to rest or regain breath
4. to reach fullness of flavor and aroma through exposure to air

sounds simple doesn't it? 

 yet i find at times, i can get so stressed out
...so filled with fear or worry
i can't even find an ounce of air to 
breath in or exhale out!

i'm glad to have discovered mindfulness

the more i practice being aware
awake and alive
the more natural it comes
to just breathe...


when you own your breath, nobody can steal your peace. 
 ~ unknown

when the breath wanders the mind also is unsteady.  but when the breath is calmed the mind too will be still, and the yogi achieves long life.  therefore, one should learn to control the breath.  ~svatmarama

if you woke up breathing, congratulations!  
you have another chance. 
 ~ boydston

inhale, and God approaches you.  hold the inhalation, and God remains with you.  exhale, and you approach God.  
hold the exhalation, 
and surrender to God. 
~krishnamacharya

smile, breathe and go slowly. 
 ~thich nhat hanh

feelings come and go like clouds in a windy sky. 
conscious breathing is my anchor. 
~thich nhat hanh

i took a deep breath and listened to the old bray of 
my heart: i am, i am, i am. 
 ~sylvia plath

the best things in life are nearest:  breath in your nostrils, light in your eyes, flowers at your feet, duties at your hand, the path of right just before you.  then do not grasp at the stars, but do life's plain, 
 common work as it comes, certain that daily duties
 and daily bread are the sweetest things in life.  
~robert louis stevenson

what art offers is space - a certain breathing room 
for the spirit.  ~john updike
 
 
 
 
 

here are several songs about breathing...
click on any title to connect to the you tube video link (enjoy!)